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Name: John
Birthday: 10/22/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: sports, sleeping, walks on the beach, ASU, Kelly Erin, sunsets, late night conversations, PS2, March Madness.....and much more.
Expertise: Well, if you ask my mom or Kelly everything. lol. But the only thing I know anything about is sports.
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  Rusty ca 4044
Yahoo:  Sparks4454
Member Since:
3/8/2005
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| have you ever just felt so content with everything. well recently i have. everything has just been going great. school seems to be finally going well and things with me and kelly just couldnt be better. i just love that girl so much. it has really hit me the last few days more then it usually does. i think alot of it has to do with all the quality time that we have been spending with one another. like tonight for instance, it was so amazing to just to cuddle with her and just sit and talk about stuff. it was great to talk about things that happend to us while we were children down to the simplest stuff like "remember when lincoln logs were cool" and stuff like that. lately she has just been way too good to me. almost to the point were i have even shed tears of joy because i have been so happy to know that i have finally found someone who loves me for who i am. i dont have to change a thing about myself. she loves the good and the bad. im just in a point in my life where everything seems to be fitting in place. i would like to thank God for finally showing me how everything is suppose to fit together and showing me the girl of my dreams.
baby, you are so amazing. you treat me better then i should ever deserve. i charish every memory that we have together. you are beautiful, wonderful, and more then i could have ever imagined or asked for. i thank God for you everyday. thank you for everything. i love you so much.
well, i guess thats it for now. untill next time. byebye. | | |
| Well, Christmas break has been good. I have already seen lots of friends and still have a couple of more to see. But the one thing that has been on my mind alot is my girlfriend. I miss her alot. Even though she is all the way in Illinois and I'm in Arizona and I will see her in a few weeks, it has still been really hard. She is always on my mind 24/7. Even the weirdest things remind me of her. I always wonder what she is doing every minute of the day. Is she think about me? What is she doing now? Question like that always flood my mind. And to make things worse I was a complete asshole today. Last night she called me all upset cause she was sad and missed me. I felt really bad. All I could do was think about how much I wanted to be there and to hold her in my arms and tell her I loved her and that it was all okay. It really tore me up. It even made me miss her even more in a way. So last night I made everything better and told her I missed her and even sheded a tear because of it. But here comes the asshole part. She calls me today and all I do is get mad and yell and bitch at her both times she had called me today. I felt and still feel terrible about what happened. I wish that I could take those moments away and tell her I loved her, missed her, and been more compassionate like I did last night but instead I was mean. I nevr want to act unappricative of her ever again. I mean I have this wonderful girlfriend, who all she does is love me and think about me 24/7 and instead of taking a minute and being nice in a stressful situation, I took it out on the one I love the most and wasn't even a factor in the stressful time. I love you baby and I never want to treat you like that again. Well, thats it for now. I will let you know how the rest of Christmas break goes and so on. Byebye. | | |
| Well, its been a while since the last post and alot of this has to do with me being so busy with homework and this school year comig to a close. This first semester has been a blast. I have met alof of new friends. Almost lost a few due to some bullshit but its all better now. Not to mention I met the girl of my dreams too.....Kelly Erin. Who is simply amazing. She is more than I could ever ask for. She copletes me and is of course my better half. Everything I could ever wanted in a girl. She is beautiful, smart and so much more. The simplest things are so much more amazing and meaningful because of her. Tonight was an amazing last night with her before I leave for AZ in the morning  . We went to Olive Garden for a last meal and after that was amazing. It was sad though. I was holding her in my arms and I could almost sense the tears she was holding back with the thought of saying goodbye to me in the morning. It was great to hold, kiss her, and tell her one more time that I love her more than anything before I leave. Yes, I did say I loved her. It is great to go to be knowing that someone is thinking about you and to know that someone wakes up and makes it through the day just so they can see you. I will miss seeing her beautiful face and smile everday for two and a half weeks. But the happiest moment in my life will be driving to Decatur on New Years Eve to see that beautiful angel one more time after such a long break. I cant wait to spend time and meet more of the family over New Years. I love you baby and can't wait untill I get have you back in my arms once again. Well, I guess its time to finish studying for my Biology Final that I'm prolly going to fail in the morning. I will leave this song that I love by Oasis called "Talk Tonight" before I go  :
Sittin' on my own
Chewin' on a bone
A thousand million
Miles from home
When Something hit me
Somewhere right between the eyes
Sleepin' on a plane
You know you can't complain
You took your last chance
Once again
I landed, stranded
Hardly even knew your name
I wanna talk tonight
Until the mornin' light
'Bout how you saved my life
You and me see how we are
You and me see how we are
All your dreams are made
Of Strawberry lemonade
And you make sure
I eat today
You take me walking
To where you played
When you were young
I'll never say that I
Won't ever make you cry
And this I'll say
I don't know why
I know I'm leavin'
But I'll be back another day
I wanna talk tonight
Until the mornin' light
'Bout how you saved my life
(You saved my life)
I wanna talk tonight
(I wanna talk tonight)
'Bout how you saved my life
(I wanna talk tonight)
'Bout how you saved my life
(I wanna talk tonight)
'Bout how you saved my life
(I wanna talk tonight)
'Bout how you saved my life
I wanna talk tonight
I LOVE KELLY ERIN !!  !! | | |
| it snowed tonight. i love the snow. its so much fun. i hat everything like ice and stuff that comes with the snow but i love walking around in it and looking at freshly fallen snow. its so beautiful. its like jewlery for trees. i love it because its so quite and peaceful when its falling. plus i got to walk in it with Kelly Erin. it was so beautiful to have her by myside and walk around in it and talk. for just that moment it was so perfect. there were no cars, no people, no noise......it was just pure sileneceand it was just about me and her and nothing else. it was like nothing else mattered to me in that moment then to have he in my arms and kiss and hear her say i love you. i wouldn't have traded it for the world........i love you baby. thank you for making the simple things in my life so amazing . | | |
| today marks the offical start of a every semester tradition........HOMEWORK CRAM 2005......lol. yep thats right the time when every teacher piles on homework to try to finish everything they couldnt get done in one semester. so yea, the stress with that is growing. i have about two 4-5 essay, a journal to finish, a service paper, a debate, three articles to write a review on, a lab final, and a lecture final. so yes im going to have fun in the next seven days doing all this work but hey its college and this happens every semester so you think i should be use to after last year. everything else seems to be going well though in my life for a change. i actually enjoy school and i have a wonderful girlfriend. i just hope she doesnt die anytime soon from the stress she is going through this being her first time going through this homework overload time. all i know is that in 12 days i will be back in AZ for the first time since i left in august. i miss it now. i didnt miss it before untill it turned like 20 degrees this week, and now i miss my 50'-60's winters in the desert and to think i use to walk around and think that that was chilly and now i wear shorts and a t-shirt if its 50 out.....lol. well, anyways......time for dinner and then more homework. like Dr. Lang said, make sure you sleep, eat right, study, go to bed early and dont saty up for like four days straight because it not good for you, and make time to pray sometime.....lol. | | |
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